I left behind the memories that caused so much pain. In my consciousness I’ve been trying to live in the present.  But when my present turned out to be unbearable at times, because of my inability to control my anger, I had to question myself and turn to God for answers.


It was in my Twelve Steps Group where I heard the voices of my past and became able to understand my present struggles.  Deep within my soul I hid my “logic,” blaming God for the hurts caused on me by others, and blaming God for my own mistakes and the consequences of my wrong doings.


I became a living example of a term used in the food industry: “damaged goods”. Basically good on the outside but damaged by my past inside of me.


The Second Principle on the Road to Recovery establishes:

“Earnestly believe that God exists, that I matter to Him, and that He has the power to help me recover”.


I had to learn to view myself through the eyes of God.  His love touched my soul in such a powerful way that I could only rededicate everything I am to Him, believing that His power is what I need to recover.


In this road I’ll find many times women that for similar circumstances, like me, see themselves as “damaged goods”.  Then  is when the saying:  “God does not waste any hurt” becomes even more real to me.


Principle Eight says: “Yield myself to God to be used to bring the Good News to others, both by my example and by my words.”


I share the Good News: we no longer have to see ourselves as damaged goods because Christ’s sacrifice on the cross is enough to repair the damage, bringing the goodness into the surface.


by Roxana Reyes Davis